Selagi belum tutup mata...kerja kerja kerja..

Dah lama tak update blog. Dah nak dekat 3 minggu. Ishh...bukan apa, terus terang cakap...MALAS!

Malas nak tengok PC kat rumah. Tiap2 hari kat kerja, dah 8.5 jam tengok PC, melayankan kerenah manusia2 yg bertanyakan soalan melalui email. Balik rumah, tak tengok PC pun takper. Tengok tv or tidor or jalan2 dgn yg tersayang lagi baik.

Cakap pasal kerja, ramai kawan2 kat kerja tanya naper aku tak apply kerja as perm kat situk? Kat tempat yg aku kerja ada advertise kat sokkabar, byk position kosong. Tapi tempat2 yg dorang offer tu dari lain dept. Actually aku dah lama apply. Aku apply nak masok kat dept yg aku bekerja skarang. Sebelom Raya Puasa aku dah apply. Personnel branch dah pernah contact aku. Tapi atas sebab2 tertentu, mereka kata kena tunggu tahun depan kalau nak masuk dept yg aku nak. Aku tak kisah. Next week dah tahun depan. Sekejap jer tu.

Ada yg tanya naper aku tak nak masuk dept lain? Tak bosan ke kerja dgn sama org, sama dept, buat sama kerja? Dlm hati aku nak cakap ajer...suka hati aku ah! Aku yg kerja ke kau yg kerja?

Tiap org ada reason dorang sendiri, why they choose and make that decision. Aku tau apa yg aku nak, and I'm going to try for it. Kalau betul I really can't get into the dept that I want, I'll give them my 2nd, 3rd, 4th and so on choices of where I wanna go. Actually I dun care where I landed up, asalkan aku ada kerja. Cuma kerja yg aku nak is somewhere where I can contribute and apply my experience and expertise on. Kalau memang takdir aku kena start from scratch, then by all means, I'm willing to learn all over again. Kena pay-cut or start from a low pay, I dun care! Money is not everything! I've learnt my lesson. Skarang jer ni gaji aku cinonet. Boleh jugak idop, bernafas gak, makan minum pakai semer masih cukup. Alhamdulillah.

My main goal and priority in life is no longer on building up a career. I used to be so down and hard on myself for failing to meet my goal. Until someone whom I respected told me to shift my focus on other goals. I told the person I dun have any. How can you live without goals? Everybody has goals. And that's where I started to think abt my life again and build a new set of goals and priorities in life. Career is no longer in my top priorities. I'm now on my journey to achieve my very first goal. FAMILY....

Selamat Pengantin Baru kepada Nuryusman Mohd Ibrahim & Nursarah Yang - 8 & 9 December 2006

8 December 2006 - Solemnisation Ceremony

The ceremony was held at Raffles Hotel. It was a small ceremony, with only close family members and friends attended the wedding. It was held at the hotel's garden. Quite a nice setting and atmosphere. So romantic....Lucky it did not rain that night, if not, we'll be drenched!

The whole ceremony was totally different from what I've seen so far for Muslim marriages. Most, or I should say, all of my family member's solemnisation ceremony was held at their own flat, with lots of relatives attended it. But this was different. So I was quite excited and curious to find out more about it. So do my friends...hehehe...

The kadhi is my favourite one - Kadhi Nur Razak (the hensem kadhi..hehe). The whole ceremony, including the 'akad nikah' was in English. Quite mesmerised by the whole thing. Alhamdulillah, it all went well and smoothly.

9 December 2006 - Wedding Ceremony

It was held at Restaurant Tepak Sireh. The nasi briyani is nice...sehingga menjilat jari. The meat was soft and tender...hmmm yummy! But there's not much variety of dishes..juz 'kuah dhal, ayam masak merah and acar timun'. Tapi ok jugak lah. Tak cerewet.

I didn't really help out much (actually there's nothing to help out in the first place). So I become 'tukang penyambut tamu'...but only to those guests that I know...hehehe. My temporary duty was to ushered guests to sign the guest book while waiting for the 'official person' to take over (coz she's late). Then I babysit two babies while their parents eat. The babies are so heavy! Koosmangat....Next I became the 'Cisco' coz I have to guard the bag 'yg isi duit salam'. Stress jaga duit banyak2...

Oh I met an old friend. Yeay! Finally met my friend while we are out. Eh wait...damn it! He's also Arfi's friend. Cheh! It's a draw......hmph! :PPPPP bonget!

The ceremony went on well and smoothly. Stayed till the last guest leave. Quite tired after the whole thing but luckily it was only for 3.5hrs. Before going home, had teh-tarik power! Segar kejap...what a nice way to end the day....hmmm yummy!

To Abg Maman and Kak Sarah (think can start calling her Kak, but quite weird lah)...Selamat Pengantin Baru. To Kak Sarah - welcome to the family. Kami doakan semoga kalian kekal hingga ke akhir hayat dan tabah mengharungi cabaran dan dugaan berumahtangga. Insya Allah. Amin.

Can refer to the following link to see the photos.
http://arfisaurus.multiply.com/photos/album/10

Oh baby...

Yesterday marks the beginning of our journey to achieve another goal in our life.

Let's
- pray that this journey will be a smooth one.
- pray that we'll achieve what we've been wanting for so long at the end of this journey.
- pray for a happy ending, dear.
- forget our previous failures. Though we were disappointed and sad, I truly believe that it was a test for us.
- pray that we will stay stronger and closer as ever with all the ups and downs that we've experienced in our life as husband and wife.

I hope that if we achieve this goal, it will make our bond even stronger. Let's think positive and Insya Allah, the Almighty will hear our prayers and give us what we've been waiting for so long. Amin.

But if it is really not the time for us again, I'll still love you dear.

Batam Trip - 7 December 2006

First time went "over-the-sea" without my husband. Quite scared coz normally he will be the one looking after me. But this time, I have to look after myself. I'll normally get seasick so that was my main concern when we board the ferry. But luckily, I ate the seasick medicine and was fine all the way to Batam.

Though there was a hiccup along the way, I can still smile and laugh along the way. No seasick! Yeay! My face is not so cramp...unlike my friend...eksen terror..hehe..u know who u are....hahaha

Had a good time at Batam. First time there. The place is something like Johor, with shophouses that look like warehouse style. No skyscrapers watsoever. Didn't go for shopping..juz spent the whole day in the spa. Got a good massage from head to toe...but the terrible, horrifying part is the facial. Azabb nauzubillah. I do go for facial in Singapore but my beautician is not so rough as the one down there. OMG! Azab seh. Cried most of the time. Thought of asking the person to stop!!! I'm not going for facial there anymore. I'll rather ask my beautician in Singapore to do it for me. But the massage, yes! Must do it there. Felt so light after the whole thing.... :)

Thank you A for organising this trip, including providing us food for 'brunch'. So when's the next trip? Will it include spa for our spouses as well? ;)

Puteri Gunung Ledang (PGL), The Musical - 24 November 2006

Last Friday, we went to watch PGL at the Esplanade. There were a lot of first times for me on that day.

Before the show, we went to Marina Square for dinner. We ate at Secret Recipe. It was the first time I tried the food there, other than their cheese cake. I'm not so adventerous in my taste buds, so I settled for Fish & Chips. :) Didn't quite like their tartar sauce. Weird taste (bukan pasal basi ke apa lah..cuma rasa weird jer..hehe..biasalah aku). In the end, my friend and Arfi finished up the tartar sauce...hehehe..

Then we went to Esplanade. It was my first time in the theatre. Wahh..soo huge! There are four levels altogether and box seats and all. It's very grand and the stage...wahh so big!! (macam org jakun ek?) This theatre is bigger than Kallang Theatre (duh!! what am I talking abt?? sighh..k nvm, I'm starting to merepek already)

PGL is superb! First time watching a musical in Malay. Great casting..with their own individual strength. Tarian dorang...wahh..gerek seh!! Cam nak join dorang joget...best ahh..enjoyed every moment of the show..music was also superb!! And Stephen Rahman-Hughes (who played Hang Tuah) - walaupun boleh dgr sikit2 slang dia..but he can sing!!! Very powerful voice!!! Terpukau jap aku...he blew me away with his powerful voice..and there was one scene, he held the last note for a verrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyy long time...30 sec maybe..or more?!?! Powerdema!!!

My favourite scene..time Sultan (Adlin Aman Ramlie) joget a-go-go...hahahaha...lepakz!! Dia joget punya lah lembut. Kekekeke...time ni aku ketawa rabakz...tak sangka Sultan zaman dulu boleh joget..hehehe..then Tengku Mahkota (anak Sultan)..so cute...macam Aney (my friend's nephew)...bila dia buka silat jer..teringat Raiyan (my friend's son). Cuttteeee....

I'm so afraid that Arfi might fall asleep coz he doesn't really like these kind of musicals and PGL is in Malay..but glad that he enjoyed it and he didn't fall asleep..yeah!! But he didn't really quite understand the ending..tried to explain to him but he is still not satisfied...it's ok dear, sejarah dia pun tonggang terbalik. Nvm..juz take it as it is ok?

After the show, we tried to get pictures of the cast. Didn't really bother to queue up for autographs coz the queue was sooooo long. So both of us berasak2 nak pergi depan, nak ambik gambar. Since Arfi has the camera, I made sure he gets to capture the casts. So, aku yg jadi 'bodyguard' dia. Org tolak aku, aku pun tolak dorang gak. And I kept pushing Arfi to go to the front. After we managed to get Tiara and Stephen's picture, we decided to give up. Dah dpt the 2 main casts picture jadi lah..kepada sesaper yg aku tertolak, minta maaf banyak2.

Next musical...Phantom of the Opera!!! The last time we catch it was like 10 years ago. It was held at Kallang Theatre. Time tu masih matair2 ngan Arfi. Now, we shall relief the moment again dear. Let's go for it!! Wuhuuu..can't wait for it next year!

Bali Trip - 12 Nov to 16 Nov

Bali is fantabulous! Love it, love it, love it!!

The scenery..Masya Allah...cantiknya! The people are all very nice and friendly...and they still preserve their culture. That's what I like abt travelling..able to see other country, the people, the culture and learn abt them. Bak kata pepatah, jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan.

Some of the memorable things that I love abt Bali...

Shopping
The salesperson...they are soooo persistent..mati2 nak suruh kita masuk kedai dorang...Tak nak give up..."Come looking ma'am".."Ayuh masuk Buk..lihat lihat".."Lihat lihat saja Buk..saya kasi murah murah"..and both of us will juz be shaking our heads and walk as fast as we could from them. Nak shopping santai2 pun dah jadik seram...takut kena serbu dgn dorang.

Kalau kita berkenan dgn barang2 kat kedai dorang, dah pening pulak pasal nak tawar menawar. Dahlah aku ni lembab sikit pasal mental sums..whatever they quote in Rupiah, kena convert cepat2 in Sing (S$1 is abt Rp5,600 plus minus..so kita divide by 5 jer..nasib tu divide by 5 jer..kalau kena divide by 8..mampos aku terkebil2 kat kedai tu). Nasib lah laki aku ni terror pasal mental sums..kalau tak..terpaksalah keluarkan calculator.

I didn't buy much..although the things here are very cheap..juz some souvenirs for families and frens and some clothes and bags...tak menggila macam kat Bangkok. Sikit2 sudah..budget trip lah katakan.

Kecak and Fire Dance
Kecak is not accompanied by any musical instruments tapi diiringi dgn paduan suara sekitar 100 lelaki saying 'kecak' throughout the whole performance. The performance was ok...but at the end of it...ada tarian pasal lelaki ni kena sampuk buat aku rasa kecut sikit. Dahlah time tu time Maghrib, langit makin gelap, lampu kat dewan tu pulak very very dim. Isshhhh...berdiri bulu roma aku jap.

Kintamani
The scenery here is so beautiful. We gotta see the spectacular view of a volcanic mountain, Batur Volcano (abt 1700m high) and Lake Batur. The air is fresh...sejuk jer...tapi tak sesejuk Genting...tu sejuk gila. Ni boleh tahan punya sejuk pasal tak payah pakai sweater...macam taknak turun jer dari gunung tu..

FOOD!!!
Yessss, food is the best! Sungguh enak dan pedas...I'm talking abt the Nasi Padang style...

Our tour guide, Pak Nur, who is also a Muslim brought us to a warong that sell Nasi Padang. Time tu dah betul2 lapar coz the last time we ate was breakfast and our so called lunch was at 3+pm. Tau tau aja lah..food is a problem down there coz majority of the people in Bali is Hindu. So banyak rasa was-was.

But once we are set to eat, fuyoh!!! Semua senyap beb. Aku lantak kuah lemak nangka, pucuk ubi cecah sambal belacan (looks like sambal belacan lah), paru goreng, ayam lemak cili padi..macam2 lagi lah. Pendek kata, kalau mak mertua lalu pun aku tak sadar. Lapar gila beb..

Another warong we found near our Resort, tu sambal dia pedas gila. Power!!! We ordered something like Ayam Penyet..ayam dia kecik jer..ayam kampung lah..tapi yg buat sedap sambal dia...powerdema!! Aku rasa dorang gunakan lada padi buat tu sambal. Terjeler lidah aku jap. Laki aku makan cam biasa ah..tapi berpeluh peluh. Fuyoh...best ah...tak terkata dia punya best...

For those yg tak pernah pergi Bali..make this yr next destination. It's beautiful...trust me! Hope to go there again soon...

Ok here are some of the photos that we managed to take...you may view them at my husb's multiply..here's the link

http://arfisaurus.multiply.com/photos/album/6

Subaru WRX Challenge 2006 - What an experience!!

Can you see my husband?!? There on the right row, 7th person from the front - number 169.

Yeah, he took part in the challenge which started last Saturday, 4th November 2006 at Ngee Ann City. What an experience it was for him!! ....and for me.

We were there since 7am. I dropped him off at the side walk and he went for the registration while I looked for a parking space. I parked our car at Al-Falah mosque. Looked at the parking charges, from 5pm to 7am, it's $3 per entry. Then from 7am to 5pm, it was like hmm $1.80 for 1st hour, then $1.20 for subsequent half and hour. I went in at 6.55am, thinking that I will only be charged the per entry basis. Well...I was wrong!!

After accompanying my husband for the registration etc, I juz don't feel gd abt the parking charges. Went back to Al-Falah and asked the parking attendant. Well, the person there was juz a security guard and he said the parking cashier will be there at abt 9am. At that time, it was already 9.20am. Guess the person was late that day. So I waited and waited. At 9.30am, the cashier came. The person was a he-she. Talked to 'it' and 'it' explained that I will be charged the per entry basis for my 5 mins there (since I came in at 6.55am) and then they will switched to the per hour basis at 7am. I was shocked! Ran to my car to get it out of there as fast as I could so that I won't hv to pay more charges (these parking charges at Orchard Rd is really a blood-sucking assh*&#). I was charged $8.70 for that 2.5hr or so. Watde****! Darah terus up seh!

Ran through my list of parking charges that we printed out from LTA (and that was printed in 2005...mistake mistake..shld hv kept the updated version in the car!! Honey, remind me to print the latest list please)...saw the next cheapest parking rate at Shaw Tower, $2.50 per entry. So went there to park. But before I went in, I checked the parking charges again to make sure and true enough...it has changed!!! It was on the per hour basis on Saturday!! Arrgghhh...can't reverse coz there's a car behind me. No choice! Went into the carpark and went back out again. Lucky for me there was a grace period and I didn't get charged for that few minutes in the car park. If not...alamakkkkk...boleh sakit jantung sehhh....Thot of parking at Plaza Sing, but decided against it coz need to pass by the ERP gantry again. So parked beside Wheelocks Place. The coupon parking area there. Parked till 1.30pm and then later shifted my car again to Heeren coz after 1pm, Heeren charged $3 per entry. OMG! It was a race against time and the stupid ERP gantry and parking charges in Orchard Rd. This is Singapore! The PAP (Pay And Pay) society. Gosh!! Really hate Orchard area, esp the parking charges. So damn bloody expensive!! Arrgghhh!!! And being me! So damn bloody particular abt expenses...cekik darah betul!!!! Geram geram!

Other than the stupid parking charges, the rest of my day went well. Besides standing in the hot sun supporting my husb, went to and fro Al-Falah for prayers, went in to Taka for a quick bite at Mac Donalds and out in the hot sun again to support my husband. Didn't see any friends and relatives around to accompany me. Well, can't blame them..they might be busy jalan-jalan Hari Raya.

But at 3pm, I have my Hady Mirza to accompany me...hehehe...He came to perform for a short while. Managed to take his photo on my handphone. Wuhuuu...His voice...like I said previously..hai boleh cair aku...so damn powerful..his voice quality cam dgr from CD seh..powerdema!

Waited all the way alone till abt 8pm when my parents-in-law came. Phew!! At last there is somebody to talk to. Nothing much happens except to see that my husb is starting to feel the pain (it was shown all over on his face). Signalled to him to persevere and 'tahan' a while longer. Take hr by hr. At 10pm, my bro come to support after he knocked off from work. He saw that my husb was already in more pain (no more smiles on his face). I didn' want to see his face anymore coz I can't bear to and decided to shift our car to another parking place coz we need to get our car out of Heeren by 11pm. So I shifted to the carpark beside Citibank. While walking back to Ngee Ann City, I began to feel tired already. What do u expect? It was past my bedtime!!! Hehehe...

We waited till 1am coz that's the next break time. My parents-in-law gotta see how chaotic it was during the 5 mins break. Oh oh oh...I gotta tell u this. There was this one contestant, he actually took his food into the toilet!! I felt disgusted by it. Yucky!! After a few mins inside, he came out with his food and still eating it. OMG!! Eeeee yucks!!! Ok, that was the 'interesting' thing that happens during the 1am break. Heeee

After the break, my parents-in-law decided to go home. So I stayed with my bro. We kept talking and talking till suddenly, my bro said "Kak Ana, Abg Arfi dah give up!!" When I turned around, I saw my husb already walked out. So I guess that's it!! He must be very very tired and has tried his best.

So we went over to him. He needed a medic to treat his back pain. Took him a while to stand and walk again. U all imagine lah..aku yg kecik molek ni kena papah dia from Ngee Ann City to the carpark...koosmangat. Sayang punya pasal. Hehehe...Love you honey.

Though we were quite sad that we couldn't stay much longer, but we were satisfied that we made thus far. I'm so proud of him and will support him no matter what happens. Anyway, we will still try again next year and we have more support now coz my bro and my cousin's husb will also join us!! So anybody wanna volunteer to be our coach and trainer?

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri - Kenangan Mengusik Jiwa

Yey! Finally...managed to find time to update my blog. Been so busy lately...al maklum sajalah...puasa, buat persiapan Hari Raya and now, Hari Raya visiting...mata ni pulak dah balik to square one...asal pukul 10pm jer dah ngantuk...so tak koser nak update blog ni mlm2 buta...Ni pun mata aku dah ngantuk tapi aku tahan...kalau tak, sampai tahun depan pun aku tak update blog ni..nanti ada org tu bising... :)

Well, sempena bulan Syawal ni, aku rasa tak lambat kalau nak ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua kaum Muslimin dan Muslimat. Mohon maaf zahir dan batin.

Tahun ni aku sambut Raya sederhana saja. Buat kuih 3 macam jer...kuih tat, biskut havana dan cornflakes. Yg lain semua org bagi, ada yg mak mertua buatkan, ada yg sepupu kasi, ada yg mak orderkan..hmm penuh jugak satu meja ngan kuih. Alhamdulillah...Baju Raya pun tak beli. Mak ngan Ibu aku kasi kain time birthday, so aku antar upah jahit. Dah dapat 2 helai baju kurung. Alhamdulillah.

Time first day Raya, as usual, aku sekeluarga akan pergi ziarah menziarahi belah bapak aku. Bapak aku ramai adik beradik...total 15 beradik..yg masih hidup 11...dan bapak aku nombor 13. So kita slalu visit kakak2 dan abang2 bapak aku time first day. Kita selalu pergi one whole big group...ramaiiiiiiiii dan sungguh meriah sebab kita slalu konvoi..berderet2 kereta...kengkadang kalau ada van atau lori, budak2 kecik yg sibuk nak naik tu..kereta yg ada aircon semua tak main..biorlah mak bapak dorang naik keter, asalkan dorang dpt naik van/lori...hehe..tapi yg anak2 dara dan mat2 tangkap hensem pula semua nak naik kereta...tau2 jerlah kalau dah set rambut, pakai mekap dan pakai baju kebaya...mana glamour nak naik van/lori...nak2 adik2 aku yg hensem dan jembu tu...hehe..(dah jgn kembang..)

Walaupun dalam kegembiraan tu semua, aku selalu berasa sedih bila visit rumah arwah Pakcik Salleh aku, adik bapak aku yg nombor 14..walaupun sudah hampir 2 tahun dia meninggal dunia, tapi tiap kali ada family function, aku akan terasa kehilangannya...sebab masa hidupnya, slalu kalau ada kenduri arwah, dia akan lead..almost every other family function, he will always be there..so skarang, bila ada family function, walaupun ada org lain 'take over'..aku masih terasa kehilangannya...he has left a deep memory in my heart because semasa aku masih kecil lagi, dia lah yg manjakan aku..dia takda anak time tu, so dia akan selalu anggap aku sebagai anak dia...slalu aku kena 'kidnap'...konon dia 'pinjam' aku buat sementara waktu to be his child...now I know how he felt ...I miss him so much :( Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh mu Pak Salleh dan tempatkan mu bersama org2 yg beriman..insya Allah. Amin.

Aku kepenatan hari ni pasal semalam balik lambat..jalan Raya dgn mak aku punya side pulak. Mak aku ada 7 adik beradik. Alhamdulillah semua masih ada. Ramai jugak yg keluar semalam, tapi tak seramai belah my fatherlah..tu champion punya!

Tapi semalam aku rasa sungguh sedih melihat kembar mak aku, Cik Yah. She's not well coz doktor kata dia ada cancer. She used to be berisi dan muka dia nampak segar sentiasa. Tapi semalam, bila kita visit dia, sedih lah aku tengok. She's soooooo kurus. Aku rasa kawan aku Yaya lagik berisi (sorry eh Ya, buat ko as comparison plak *wink* *wink*). I'm so sad coz we are not sure if this is the last Ramadhan, the last Raya that I will be able to celebrate with her. It's juz so sad...but this is life. Setiap yg hidup pasti akan mati. Tiada siapa yg tau bila ajal kita akan dtg, kecuali Allah. Aku doakan semoga Cik Yah akan sihat kembali, insya Allah. Semoga Allah akan memberimu kekuatan dan ketabahan utk menghadapi dugaan2 Allah. insya Allah. Amin.

Tapi disebalik kesedihan tu semua, aku rasa sungguh gumbira sebab dpt berjumpa dgn sepupu aku, 3 org, yg dah lamaaaaaaaa aku tak jumpa sebab bila pakcik aku bercerai, dia ikot makcik aku. So kita dah lama tak dpt jumpa. Semalam, entah apa plan mak aku, dia kata kita pergi visit rumah makcik aku. Akhirnya dapat jumpa dorang..sampai aku tak kenal pong dorang...dah besar panjang...dulu anak2 lagik...so happy to meet up with them..I dunno what grievances that my uncle and aunt had last time, but to me, I'm juz glad that we could meet up with my cousins and at least, dpt mengeratkan silaturrahim antara keluarga. Buang yg keruh, ambil yg jernih. Semoga kita dpt kekalkan persambungan silaturrahim yg telah lama putus ini. Insya Allah.

Ok I think this is enough. Dah terpanjang lebar pulak. Mata aku yg kuyu ni dah semakin kuyu. Ngantuk beb..bukan pasal Subutex. K lah, aku nak masuk tidor. Besok pagi nak kena p kerja...alahai...malas betul nak p kerja....dok rumah tidor lagik best!

K lah..wa p tidor luk. Ciao!

6th Ramadhan

Yes, 6th Ramadhan..my BIRTHDAY!! Happy birthday to me (x4).

According to my Mum, I was born on the 6th of Ramadhan and on a Sunday. And because of all these significant date and day, that's how I got my name. Yes, my name! How you may ask?

Well this is what my Mum told me. My name is N/O/R/H/A/N/A. Let's break it down to:

NOR - it comes from the word 'cahaya' or light or ray..I think (I don't know what it's called in English..haha). Anyway, my Mum's name also starts with NOR, so she said they follow that..put a NOR in front.

HA - it comes from the word Ahad - which means Sunday in Malay.

NA - it comes from the word enam - which means six, since I was born on the 6th of Ramadhan. She also said that it's easier for her to remember that date in future. So that's it. That's how I got my name!! :) But sadly, there' s no meaning for my full name in Arabic. :(

Juz heard Hady's first single on our car radio juz now. Been waiting for the song "You give me wings" on air...finally gotta hear it. But not the complete song thou coz we have reached our destination. Hmm. nvm, gonna buy the single..hee hee (kemarok sak aku)...

Oklah, gtg now. Sleeping early today coz it's going to be a longgg day tomorrow. Lotsa plan with hubby. :)

Oleee ole ole oleee..HADY..HADY

Yeah yeah! Hady Mirza is the newly crowned Singapore Idol 2006. My idol (cairrrr)..tak sia-sia aku support dia since the beginning..hee hee...so happy that he won. Bila dia nyanyi jer...aduhhh...cairrrr..lutut semua longgar..tangkap lentok babe!

Nasib bukan 'ah beng' yg menang..tapi se 'ah beng-ah beng' Jon pun, he is much much much better than Sly (jgn marah peminat2 Sly..ni preference aku jer). Ni kali KALAU Jon menang pun, ok jugaklah.

Kejam celik, kejam celik..dah 4 hari kita berpuasa. Cepat eh? First day puasa, aku buka kat rumah. Aku masak spagetti style Melayu..pedas! 2nd day..time tengah Result Show tu, aku ngah kat kelas..ngah bajar..buka roti jer (cian seh tak macam org tu..dpt makan briyani kat masjid..hehe..u know who u r). Semalam buka kat rumah mazer in law (aka Ibu). Macam-macam lauk pauk ada..padahal yg buka 3 org jer. So niari, aim kena abiskan lauk belen yg bawak balik dari rumah Ibu...banyakkkkk...Alhamdulillah..kenyang jugak akhirnya. So far aku belum mengidam nak makan apa-apa time bulan puasa ni..tengoklah yer nanti mcm mana..

Aku ada soalan cepu mas kat member-member semer - bila nak buka puasa sama-sama? Dan BILA NAK PERGI GEYLANG??

My First Diary Ever

Assalamualaikum...

Welcome to my very own blog. Since today is the 1st day of Ramadhan, I would like to wish all Muslims "Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa di bulan Ramadhan yg penuh barakah ini. Semoga anda semua mendapat puasa yg mabrur. Insya Allah"

At last, dapat jugak aku create my own blog. The idea has been on my mind for quite a while. Tapi tak tercreate pun. Have been shelfing that idea for ages since I used to be very busy with work. Now that I'm out of job, the idea juz popped up in my head again and here I am, writing my own blog and creating my first diary ever.

I've been out of job since 11 August 06. The recent job is juz not suitable for me and I've lots of painful memories there. Juz can't get along with the people (Managers esp) and the work stress is too much to handle. But I love the work itself. Gotta learn a lot and the exposure is very very good. Wished that I could juz do my work without dealing with the people (nahhh...in your dreamz bebeh).

I've been staying at home since then until I met my ex-supervisor from my 1st job for lunch one day. She offered me a part time job in my old workplace to help her clear "Emails" while I look for a permanent job. Decided to accept her offer after discussing with my husband. He's with the idea coz at least I can keep myself occupied and earn some money every mth (though it's very much little as compared to my usual pay), but at least..sikit pun is better than nothing, rite? Anyway, it's juz a part time job...no commitment and I can quit anytime I like (juz give 3 days notice jer).

Juz started working last Tuesday. Very very happy and excited on my first day. Went to meet all my old colleagues and took about half a day to say 'Hi' to all. Got a lot of reactions from them. Some very happy that I'm back, some keep on asking why..why I came back? why I quit? why why why?..some laugh when I said I worked part time there, some neutral reaction..well..maknosia, memacam perangai..memacam ragam..Told my husband abt it coz quite sad with the negative reaction..well he said, for those who think negative, they r not real friends, they are juz acquitances...Yah quite true..I shld not bother abt what people said...asalkan aku cari rezki yg halal, dpt restu somi and I'm happy, that shld be orait.

After the 'visiting and saying 'Hi'' session is over, the excitement has somewhat zapped all of my energy and by lunch time, I was very tired (tengah puasa pulak tu). So, to conserve energy, I talked very little during lunch...not sure if my lunchmates (muka2 sama jugak..hehehe) perasan ke tak...and never talk to anyone after lunch. Juz sit in front of my PC and start doing my work. Yah, on my first day dah start buat kerja. Tak kasi chance langsung!

Had to learn the new system that has juz been launched. Quite slow lah but they said it's much better than the first few mths that it was launched. So, juz go with the flow. Anyway, my job now is so very simple. Juz update address and personal particulars. Hahaha...tak ke senang punya kerja? Dah lama aku tak buat kerja sesenang tu..hehehe

I'm still looking for a perm job. Actually, aku sendiri tak tau apa kerja aku nak buat sekarang. I've been saying I want to do Accounts, but inside my heart, I'm not sure if that's what I really want to do. I'm still searching for my true self and keep on asking what I really want. After the experience that I've gone thru at my recent job, my confidence level has dropped tremendously. I'm always hesitant/unsure in whatever things that I do now. Totally different from my old me! Used to be very sure and certain of what I want and go for it! But now...haizzzzzz. Is this a sign of depression?

I hope bulan yg penuh barakah ini, Allah will answer my prayers soon....to show me the way that is best for me dan memberiku petunjuk, taufik dan hidayahMu selalu. Hanya Engkau yg Maha Mengetahui dan tahu apa yg terbaik buat hambamu ini. Amin.

Before I end, I would like to say thank you to all my beloved and bestest friends (you know who you are). If you are reading this, thank you so much for all your support all these years...during my ups and downs..we have shared so many things together..and you guys are always there for me..

And especially to my beloved Sayang, thank you for being there always. Allah Maha Besar. He has given me a husband who has broad shoulders so that I could lie and cry on it, who is like a teddy bear so that I could squeeze and hug lovingly...who is so understanding and loving...thank you for all your time and patience..listening to my complaints and problems everyday. I'm glad and grateful that I choose you and stick to you and I'm proud to call you my husband..Love you Sayang..muaks...